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greetings from college. [22 Sep 2009|11:00am] [ music | The Song of Purple Summer - Duncan Sheik ] hey. it's me. *blows dust off of lj* i'm here. (: i'm very tired, many late nights reading Mary Wollstonecraft, John Stuart Mill and Simone de Beauvoir. pair that with two hours of marching band every monday, wednesday and friday plus game days which equate to about twelve hours on my feet ... you get the picture. i'm exhausted. I didn't even fecking read all the way through some of those articles for Feminist theory. I skimmed. *sigh* When it's 3 point font in columns on the page, it gets a little hard to focus. It's ... overwhelming. But that's the only class I'm having issues with. The only one. The rest of them are rather ... fun. I guess. but ... anyway. I love my dorm room, (minus the internet because it sucks) and I like my roommate. ♥ She's kindof awesome. :DD Hm. Not much to write about. cmt

[25 Jul 2009|03:24am] i have such a low self esteem lately. i haven't actually eaten in three days. i can't make myself ingest food, because it doesn't make me feel better. it just makes me nauseous. it's not about the calories, and it's not about me being creepy about my food. i just don't like it anymore. i hate going out of the house because i feel like everyone's watching me. judging. i know it's paranoia. i'm sure that comes with the territory of not eating and not sleeping very much. my mom is making me go to curves with her tomorrow later today. i don't want to. i don't want other women watching me. i don't. the thought of it makes me anxious and jittery. i just want to cry. cmt

[24 Jul 2009|06:06pm] pent up emotions are a bitch. i cried today because i hated absolutely everything i saw in the mirror. read 2 cmt

[24 Jul 2009|03:36am] apparently my manners aren't adequate enough. cmt

[23 Jul 2009|01:14pm] I haven't been on LJ in a while. Mostly I've been skimming around and I've been rather busy with writing and roleplays and being nerdy. :B I've rekindled my friendship with Ahlon, because I know she's a good person and it was stupid of me to ditch her for one character flaw. so we're good now, talking on the phone until the wee hours of the morning. I have become wholly addicted to tumblr. http://fadeinonme.tumblr.com yes. i love it so much. but i don't like to blog there. it's just not the same as LJ. So my roommate to be is especially funny and I'm super excited that we're going to be rooming together. I'm bringing a lot of things to the room. and so is sheeeee. c: I need to go shopping, possibly at target to pick up a few more things before I get my wisdom teeth yanked out on Tuesday. but I'm sure my dad will be like; 'NO. LAUNDRY. DO IT. NAO. PLZKTHX HAVE A NICE DAY." c: Hmm. I rather like Gaia again, the zOMG! game is rahter fun and for a while it was really addicting. I'll slowly ease back into that. (stillquestingforthatangelicscarf. <<) read 1 cmt

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